Crying...

Ever have one of those days you just can't seem to stop crying?  Well I have a lot and tonight is one of them.

I JUST CAN'T STOP CRYING!!

Crying for me has always equaled depression, for that is when I thought I had cried the most.  Lately it seems like I'm shedding more tears than ever before. I believe it's because I'm finally understanding what they are falling for and I am free to feel emotions for the first time ever. And boy oh boy am I feeling: grief, loss, mourning, rejection, abandonment, sorrow, doubt, sadness and loneliness.

But to deny myself the opportunity to release my feelings, and give them to the only One who can Heal would keep me crying forever.  

So I say to these tears that flow tonight...let them fall like rain!

It's ok...

What if every time I let the tears fall He is right here?
What if I'm meant to feel His presence with each and every tear?
What if each drop that falls from my eyes are meant to heal with time?
What if every time I cry, He's telling me, "You are Mine"?
What if I remember this and freely let my tears fall?
What if I accept I am His beloved and not unloved at all?

I wait for His healing in my tears
I believe in His Comfort in my sorrows
I receive His blessings in my pain
I hope for His Joy for my tomorrows 

Psalm 56:8
You keep track of all my sorrows.  You have collected all  my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. 

Revelations 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying,  nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.